This is where my thoughts have been hiding lately
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what are your nightmares about? How long have you been having them? Do they affect you in any way?

Hmmm a lot of the time they involve people that I have let down or people who have let me down. Most dreams I tend to forget what actually happens, but I'll wake up really fucking stressed out. A couple of times mum has come in to get me up and I was so scared that I physically screamed. They usually come and go in big blocks, the worst one was three weeks long. I had at least one every night. They have started again in the past few days and I had two on Monday night. They tend to make me really fucking stressed during the day and sleepless at night, it doesn't help that I have a mountain of school work that I just cannot be bothered doing and I'm just generally really tired. I just want to get high I tend to have nice dreams when I'm high

Hit me

I watch the smoke start to rise of one hundred homes, one hundred fires.
Everything you own now burns away
This town is no longer mine its fucked with me for the last time
how i wish that i could see your face.

/implodes ^^

I THINK MICHAEL WHITTAKER IS A GOD

NEW BIKE NEW BIKE I GOT A NEW BIKE!

20km of cycling averaging at 30km/h in headwinds today 
I AM ABOUT TO DIE

hi

hey

Life is good sitting round getting drunk cutting peoples hair off listening to trashy love songs with cool people

I think if I get high tonight it will turn my nightmares into nice dreams

I cant believe i've done this again. the scars still havn't faded from the first time, fuck i hate myself

When she

She held his back all the way now her arms so tired
Why didn't he stay?

This is the one we were hoping for
He cries when she loves
He laughs his way down to when he'll realize
Now he will say you weren't tough enough, strong enough for my love?

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME

My nightmares havn't ceased.
I've had at least one every night since the start of the holidays, that's two weeks people!

Wait for me

I didn't and still don't know how to deal with it. My situation doesn't give me much room to move in regards to going about telling anyone. I think it'l be easier after high school when I don't have to give a fuck what people think.

I think we've been through enough to get through this

I think i need me a private blog, maybe it would help

You have no idea how much I would kill to own that!

take me anywhere i don't care
i don't care i don't care i don't care
i never never want to go home
because i havn't got one

this will only hurt you until his shadow fades away

My greatest gift to you is a dance floor
free from insecurity

This is still my favourite

Cheese on toast is the best bad day food yessssssssssss

Fuck this if you die on me monty i will have nothing left

Sometimes I lie awake at night, and I ask, "Where have I gone wrong?"/ Then a voice says to me, "This is going to take more than one night."

AAHAHAHA!!

I hate being the only one at cycling who is unfit with a shit bike, FFFFFFFUUUUUUUUU-

I don't give a fuck. Shut the fuck up and just get on with it.

Tonight will be super fun! I love Laura and Millie hahaha

Please don't be offended whilst reading this as it is most likely is not about you

HAHA IT'S FUNNY COZ WE ARE LIKE BEST FRIENDS
BUT MOST OF THE TIME I CAN'T STAND YOU.

SHIT
I LOVE ZAC EFRON

Haha I've been talking to this person on Omegle for like an hour. Who ever they are, they're definately making my night, what with her tales of crowd surfing at an Alexisonfire!!!
They have really good music taste :D

I WANT HIM

I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU ALL THINK
I can't even describe how happy High School Musical 3 makes me!

How can someone so young sing words so sad?

Seeing this high was so intense ^^

DOO OHH YOU

YOU MAKE MY DREAMS COME TRUE
DOO DO DOO DO

:D

on another note

P.S I hate my Stepfather.
It's meant to be Mum and his wedding anniversay thing tonight and he's gone and got all fucking angry and annoying. If he ruins her night I will be fucking fuming!

HAPPINESS MAKES ME HAPPY

Eve took me out for birthday lunch today! We went to Blue Fish Sushi Train!!!
It was yum :]
Then I got coffee with Eva and went to the bead shop to fix the bracelet Scarlett gave me and then went and got Gelato ice cream from the cute wee shop on Manchester St!
+ My cousin gave me a $30 iTunes voucher for my birthday! Yay!

Day of Birth

I had such an intensely great birthday it was just amazing!
I got my nose pierced :D
I had so much fun at my party although I'm angry because people deleted heaps of photos from my camera so I don't have any from the start of the night at all ]:
But heaps of random people showed up which was fun! Like lovely Jess and Althea :] And then some people who I didn't know which was weird! haha
I LOVE MY DAD

SIXTEEEEN

tomorrow is my birthday!
i want my nose pierced but i dont really want a huge stud in my nose for my party because you cant change it for a few days after you get it done.
oh well
i hope everything goes well
dad is hopefully buying heaps of my favourite wine YAY
and we're having a hungi!
i had a such a crap day today, but i want tomorrow to be good so i have to be happy
i also intend on forgetting the fact that the 3 main people i want to come, probably wont because im crap

HEY

FUCK EVERYTHING

i won't mistake you for problems with me

i don't have to exist outside of this place

ALOHA

The stars are aligned, But they don't align for us

BEST

WATCH THIS

Where would I be without Dallas Green

a coma might feel better than this

other than here, the place where i write my thoughts for the whole world to see in my cryptic writing so you never know who i am talking about, there is nothing to show for my life.
nothing to show for the happiness i have experienced; the pain i have suffered.
no where that is private where i can just fucking do what i want. write what i want, draw, cry, laugh;

and make what im feeling fucking visable.

when these feelings come back i am small and weak.
i know its not fair on the people around me, but i am not fucking happy all the fucking time okay. fuck you all

but seriously, everthing in my life today i am learning to appreciate. my expectations are high, but why shouldn't they be? i don't want to feel this low again because of anyone.

Stop fucking going through life trying to 'find' yourself. Create yourself, or your life is wasted

He saw a lonely girl,
she saw a lonely world

i wish you'd never forget the look on my face when we first met

HOW CAN THERE STILL BE MORE TO DO? THIS HAS BEEN SUCH A BAD DAY.

i drink cups of tea

this is my brain. its torturous, analytical thoughts make me go insane

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