i drink cups of tea

this is my brain. its torturous, analytical thoughts make me go insane

And in other news..

be a man

SPIN SHOULD DIE OR JUST CHANGE TO AFTER SCHOOL

Whaaa I just remembered that it's Spin tomorrow!
I DON'T WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL AT 6.45AM ITS TOO EARLY FOR EXERCISING!

Brittany's

Last night was so fun!
I can't remember much but my camera says it all!
At the start I was like

"definately not letting drunk people touch my camera"

Turns out most of the photos have me in them, so that plan obviosuly failed, i think celeste was taking heaps! thank god no one broke anything!

I have writing ALL over me in vivid that I have no idea who did!
I got in the shower this morning and was like WHAAAT
It's on my back and my stomach and my arms and my chest!
Hahah britt

'I AM STEVE IN'

At the end I threw up though which was hideously awful and embarrasing. I thought I had lost my phone and dad was coming to get me so i was rushing then i found that it had been in my pocket all along! I was stressing!
It may also have been due to the fact that i mixed vodka, wine and beer ahahah

BRITTTTTT :]

It's currently -2degrees in Kurashiki, Okayama, Japan where I stayed in 2008,
I feel so bad for my host family!

ON A HAPPIER NOTE HAPPY FUCKING BIRTHDAY BRITTANY!!!!!

Tonight

I have to be ready by 5.30 for mum to pick me up to go to work!
So in this time I need to:
- Get ready into clothes that are far to formal for my liking
- Find a way to get my hair off my face without looking like a retard
- Eat dinner
- Brush teeth
- Prepare for utter doom in my ear when I take my stretcher out for at least 4.5 hours! D;

But more importantly I have to STAY AWAKE.
*iz tired*

New blog layout

(Y)

New job!

On a more pleasant note, I have work tomorrow night with Milly! YAYA

Drown out the voice talks the joy out of everything.

You had to walk in darkness without the only thing you care about.

With such an ugly blow
I don't know which is worse: to learn or not to know?

How will we ever get out of this labyrinth of suffering?

self loathing

Dear Horoscope Writer,

You are a complete genius I havn't had such a nice day in so long,

My horoscope for today looks good and is surprsingly accurate about what my plans are!

I am feeling giddy. GIDDY I TELL YOU

this will consume us all

hello this is me nothing is working out

Fuck my pessimistic bullshit. Listen:

"I now understood the answer to everyone’s ultimate question – What is the meaning of existence? What is the purpose of my life? The answer was... that there was no answer. Everything just is. Manifest existence came into creation for the sole purpose of being, just to experience life. What answer could possibly be more profound than that? The world was beautiful, in all its cruelties and misgivings, and I was content with that."

this ruined me. fuck your expextations

Vanilla Toffee yoghurt cures all

Comment if you want to know yours!

I have a book of birthdays. It tells you what your personality is like from your birth date lol

Me: April 7
You are an enthusiastic planner and carry out your plans in the easiest way rather to a glorius finish. You love social life and enjoy entertaining. Your love is ardent and enduring.

many plans

this is a good thing

I'm not going on the biology trip tomorrow,!
Yay

all i want is somm'a your good tym

this is my fucken life right here

Everything is fucking pointless and stupid
Apart from tonight. Tonight was good fuck yea
and cadbury dream chocolate

lauren you are fucking amazing at stuff and you win at singing at gigs and im sorry we are shit lately but i love you

i know a girl, she puts the colour in my world

it's only a 1/4 life crisis

John Mayer, marry me

the kettle whistles; the kitchen fills with steam

i am unworthy.
i am unloveable.
i am petty.
i am breaking

I've made Creme Egg flavoured icing yum yum yum

i dont want to see people i dont want to see life

i love u muesli my friend

today

I just applied for a job at Addington! If I get it then I could be working with Milly and Laura and Armenia! yayay!

every night lately i've been taking the dogs for walks, i like it, it clears my head. its become the best part of my day, i hang out for that feeling of peace when, for a while i don't have to think (hyperbole) :P

i wouldn't like me if i met me

too much to handle

ps

i have never been so thirsty in my life

paramore was good but i feel like shit and just in a general unhappy state
i do not know the reasoning for this

It's going to be so weird seeing Paramore tomorrow!
Like they used to be my FAVOURITE ever band, but I don't even like their new album much. I guess It'l be good for old times sake

ive been waiting to long to give this up the more i see i understand but sometimes i still need you

your silence

dark, you can't come soon enough for me
saved from another day of misery
everyone i love, i need you now
everything i love get back from me now

Hi my name is Zombie

Yesterday we went for a 33km bike ride, Dad and I, it was fun.

Today I was at school at 6.45am for spin training, I am now a zombie.