Empty In Between

Going to the four dollar shop was so fun today ;]
It would have been a negative free day if i hadn't been told what you're thinking of me these days. So I'm surprised you kept it. Maybe it's different than what it is
Great, now my iPod won't scrobble.

lmao!

im doing my speech on excuses and i googled it and here are some good ones!

Note these are spelling mistakes
1. Please excuse Mary for being absent yesterday. She was in bed with gramps.

2.Please excuse Roland from P.E. for a few days. Yesterday he fell out of a tree and misplaced his hip.

3.Please excuse Tommy for being absent yesterday. He had diarrhea and his boots leak.

4. Please excuse Jennifer for missing school yesterday. We forgot to get the Sunday paper off the porch, and when we found it Monday, we thought it was Sunday.

How long can you hang onto a word?

this is gone

and i cant see it.

your head is full of words

full of words that dont mean anything.

A letter to my friends. Only read this if you actually care. please.

i know i can be a fucking pathetic friend.
i know i can be moody, and i don't deal with my emotions well.
i can go from on top of the world one second, then the next it's as if the worlds ending.
i know that i can put too much of my heart into people, when i shouldnt.
and i definately know the outcome of this.
i know i go from hyper and immature to serious and depressed all in a day.
i know i can be opinionated and defensive.
i know i take everything to heart, even if i know it was a joke
i know that this all caused by my insecurities.
i fucking know.
but please dont get sick of me and give up,
because i need the few friends i have left, and i love all of you more than anything.

Im sorry for the way i am and can be, but thank you too all those who have stuck through it all, and that will persist with me.
i see those people and it really does make all the difference.
You will be in my heart forever.

all it is

Finally I could hope for a better day.
No longer holding on to all the things that cloud my mind .
Maybe then the weight of the world wouldn't seem so heavy
But then again, I'll probably always feel this way.

At least i know I'll never sleep at night
I'll always lie awake until the morning light
This is something that I'll never control

My nerves will be the death of me, I know

waiting...

your words are like knives

tell me what lifes like

I am seriously beginning to wonder
about things
and about people.

none of it adds up.
just everything. it doesnt make sense anymore

this is shit!

it JUST got dark, in about the last ten minutes.
and it's only 6.05 pm!
man i hate winter!

Plans

lie back
take it all.
break it. throw it.
hate. love.
dont think.
jumping off the roof into the pool could be fun!

have a fucking swell time doing it,
and deal with the consequences tomorrow.

snip cut nip tuck

lol.
i noticed that sometimes if i'm feeling an intense emotion of either happy or angry or excited or whatever, that's when i cut my hair.

i was thinking about it, and i would have thought i'd do it when i'm bored, but no.

and depending on how strongly i feel on the situation, thats how much i cut into it.

when im angry i think is the best time, because i get really into it, and i try and concentrate.

hmm.
i just realised this. and thought it was nice. kind of stupid. but nice

lol

reading Scar Tissue which is the one about the guy from red hot chili peppers you know,
then ive got Memoirs Of A Geisha lined up then im not sure, any ideas?

what am i doing? reading?! wtf

this is

hahahahahahahaaaaa oh shit.

i need to find something to do

being bored is for boring people

SWEET

sorting out my new plan of attack ^^
and its gonnna be really gooood
and its going to change everything :]
all will be well!
yip :]

lol

today i got excited because a saw japan sign that i could read so i read it out loud and it said japan pan
lol
which means japan bakery
and so i thought i was cool coz i was going to translate it to kane
but then he pointed out that it was also written in english right above it
mehe

redcatpurplebatilikemynewhat

i just got home after an long, traffic filled bus journey. i bought a new/secondhand hat today for $5 from Toffs! we went to cupcake parlour with max who i met yesterday after so long of bebo-talk! im seeing kaneyshot tomorrow yayayayayayaya
lauren stayed last night and we ate all my chocolate ;]
i also made a cool necklace
and just made myself a cup of tea. its the pink one, it says 'be charged' on the box, so heres hoping lolz

yes!

We'll play Imagine-opoly because we couldn't afford the real Monopoly!
We'll buy three 4packs of fizzy because they were on special and then laugh so hard it comes out ali's nose!
We'll see Simon and get excited because he's so cool and we havn't seen him in space ages, and we'll eat his sushi!
We'll walk around in circles for long amounts of time until we think of a plan!
And we'll definately jump around for ages trying get Kane and also Dympna's attention because we're up at Bubble Cup, and they arent lol

All in all, we'll just have a good day tbh
And I'll write in weird tenses and whatnot, because I can. I can.
i can i can i can.

i been tired for days

and days and days

hate that bitch

jkz











I LOVE LAUREN WENT

do or lose

if you dont tell people you appreciate them then they will eventually just think that you dont.
then your left with fuck all
and so im going to appreciate people as much as possible from now on so i keep the friends i have left
cool plan

the night is taking sides

My dreams are nothing like they were meant to be

Could it be? this misery will suffice

laugh before you grin

today was a very good day
im always happy around you :]

lolol lmaonaise

lol the rentals are fighting over a fucking tractor!
like a screaming match im not even kidding!

:/

all the time we dont talk i feel so shit because i tell myself i miss you
but then everytime we do talk i feel even worse.
i dont know why. its crazy. i do miss you a lot, but missing you is so depressing

ily. but shit i cant write at all lol

i know how i feel and i think its the same for you
im sure it might shock people if they knew.
but its been like this for so long that maybe its too late
but just so you know, i can wait.
its fine because i love you so much as a friend
so if thats good for you its good for me too.
you make me feel important and pretty
when you are the ultimate of everything
and its funny how lots of people dislike you, but how i love you lots lots lots

sorry

hate it when people call blogspot blogger, its stupid and the name's blogspot

So this mad psycho tells everyone to get into a field and says 'im going to pick one of you, just one of you out of all of you to die." and everyones looking around thinking
'its so unlikely to be me because theres thousands of us, so statistically its completely unlikely'

and the psycho walks up and down looking at everyone and when he gets near me he hesitates and he smiles and then he points right at me and says

"youre the one"
and the shock that its me, but yet of course its me, why wouldnt it be?
i knew it all along