Sunday, May 3, 2009

This is how it is. Now I know.

My whole life I've resented you for not being there and not caring about anyone but yourself.
I can hardly bring myself to have a conversation with you, let alone come stay anymore. Especially with your shit girlfriend hovering around making a deal out of everything I say.
After all the frustration I have with you, today I saw you for all of about 20 minutes, and I just felt sorry for you.
You pretty much don't have a paying job. But still, you pretend your life is perfect, with your perfect little house and such a lovely girlfriend.
Your girlfriend is fucking rude to me but you choose to overlook it because she's an "adult" and im the "child".
I would talk to you about everything, if I knew you wouldn't report back to her. But I know that the things I want to tell you are things that you wouldn't mind about, but she'd throw a fit.
You say you havn't got any money for my school lunch, or dinner, but still you can afford to drink and smoke and do whatever you please.
Only as long as it doesn't involve me, interferring with your lovely perfect life.
You lie without even doing it on purpose.
I know you say you love me, but i would be surprised if you even know what real unconditional love for someone is.
You only know love for yourself.

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