Disappointment.

I hate going to family things because I look at my cousins and stuff and feel so bad for my mum. Why couldn't she get nice, normal, happy kids? She does so much for everyone and it seems like she might be becoming depressed a bit. I feel so bad that she got stuck with the two semi self destructive and easily depressed children out of a family of like a zillion; the rest of whom are all the happiest people you'l ever meet. I wish I could be more for her.
I don't know why I'm writing this